My Abba

Abba Father,

I love your presence,

I love you and your loving kindness.

Thank you for your discipline,

I know it’s because you love me,

help me to embrace it

even when it stings and hurts

and my flesh balks at obeying.

Help me to be wise,

listen and obey—

I know it’s the way of life.

I’m most myself with you,

no pretenses,

no self deception,

no more striving.

I can’t believe you’d care so much for my heart,

my joy, my peace,

that you wouldn’t let me settle

for all the lesser things I’d desired.

I’m grateful for closed doors,

all the frustrations and pain.

It’s led me to discovering you—

and slowly finding me.

I love you Abba.

Amen.

Loving Father

Father,

you are such a good, good dad.

Thank you for your love,

for creating me,

making me in your image,

unique,

fearfully and wonderfully made.

I’m amazed at your delight,

that my joy and peace would make you happy.

My heart at rest,

not striving anymore,

just being me,

and loving you

with the gifts you’ve given me,

what brings me life and joy…

that you’d delight in that…

thank you.

You’re such a good, good Father.

Let me delight in you,

in the same way,

knowing your heart, personality, character rightly,

loving what you love,

hating what you hate,

just being close,

and enjoying your presence.

Thank you for saving me,

drawing me to your Son

and opening my heart.

I could never have come on my own,

but only by your grace and mercy,

thank you forever.

I love you Father.

Amen.

Known And Blessed

Lord,

I’m astounded by your care,

you’ve numbered every hair on my head,

you’ve sewn every stitch of my soul,

every word in my mouth,

movement of my heart,

you already know.

You watch me with care,

my lying down, going out,

my habits, quirks, and ways,

better than I know myself.

You understand and intimately know me.

I can rest,

trusting your guidance and counsel

is perfect for me,

as you hem me in from behind,

and go before me.

Lord, grant me a pure heart,

renew a right spirit within me,

remove anything in me that hinders your love,

please lead me in the way everlasting.

I praise you and thank you,

Lord of my life.

Amen.

Sweet Intimacy

Lord,

thank you for drawing up the emptiness,

exposing the loneliness,

showing me the depths of my heart

that only you are meant to fill.

I praise you that you’d draw me close,

close as a friend,

away into your chambers,

intimate as a bridegroom,

and I receive you Lord

inviting your presence,

fill me with your Spirit,

dwell within me.

Draw me close,

hold me near,

help me to follow where you call.

Let me not resist,

hold back, hesitate,

but grab hold of your hand,

and be with you,

as close as you would let me be.

I love you Lord.

Amen.

Love All Around

Beautiful Lord,

open my eyes

to see your love all around,

ocean swells buoying me up,

lifting and carrying me

through the flotsam and jetsam of the day.

Thank you for the all the ways you love me

that I don’t even know,

I’m not even aware of,

help me to never take you for granted.

Pierce through the veil

and let me see beyond

that I may perceive your reflection

in the one standing in front of me,

those all around me,

that your love wouldn’t stop with me,

but would catch fire,

and grow and grow,

that a bonfire of praise would arise

from all around,

all the way up to the heavens

and bless your heart.

I praise you Lord.

Amen.

God’s With Me

Lord,

I praise you for your nearness,

that you are for me

not against me,

you are on my side.

I thank you for your grace,

for the faith you pour into my soul,

to receive your mercies again and again,

to find courage to follow you.

Thank you for showing me glimpses of who I am without you,

not overwhelming me with my own evil and brokenness,

but loving, accepting, kind,

you urge me to come to you,

the only One who can heal, restore, and redeem.

Grant me a clean heart,

one that’s soft, sensitive, tender towards you,

renew a right spirit within me,

teach me true humility before you,

to know myself rightly,

and just let me love you

as high, long, wide, and deep

you’d give me grace to.

I love you Lord.

Amen.

Loved In The Wilderness

Lord,

thank you for your love,

though I’m stained with sin,

you save and deliver me

and call me lovely.

I bless you for taking me into the wilderness,

drying up any source of comfort,

pleasure, and addiction,

exposing hidden sins,

unearthing fears and pain,

breaking up my fragile veneer,

and tending to the sinner,

the mess within

with tenderness, compassion,

gentleness, and lovingkindness.

I praise you Lord of the universe,

you owe me nothing,

I deserve only your wrath,

but that you’d humble yourself,

and woo my heart,

proving your faithfulness again and again,

loving me to surrender,

showing me I’m no longer a slave,

or an orphan, or a broken soul,

but beloved,

a child of God,

whole, healed, complete in you

with nothing to prove,

nothing to give,

except my sacrifice of thanksgiving and praise.

Lover of my soul,

I bless your Name.

Amen.

Unchanging Love

Lord,

thank you for your eternal, unfailing love.

When I succeed in some endeavors,

and stumble and fail in more,

thank you for your love for me.

When I’m happy, secure, and confident,

when I’m discouraged, sad, and timid,

thank you for your love for me.

When I’m praying, reading your Word, and soaring in spirit,

when I’m exhausted, dull in my flesh, and rebellious,

thank you for your love for me.

When I’m believing, full of faith, and victorious,

when I’m fearful, anxious, and distrusting,

thank you for your love for me.

When some accept me,

and others reject me,

thank you for your love for me.

Whether the sun is shining and the sky is bright,

or darkness comes with storms and clouds,

thank you that your love for me never changes.

Lord, I am up one moment,

down the next,

limited, temperamental, capricious, and fickle.

You are my rock,

your love my anchor,

your grace and mercy

a refuge and respite

from the world and from me.

Thank you that your love never depended on me,

you love because you are love,

please give me the grace,

to delve into the heights, lengths,

widths, and depths of your love,

to never be familiar and always in awe of you,

seeking, open, wondering,

asking, knocking, trusting

expectant in faith and hope

of knowing you more.

I need you and I love you Lord.

Amen.

Give Me Faith

Lord,

let me choose life,

your Word, your Spirit,

your heart, will, ways, and love

with every step, every breath.

Give me faith

to apply to all that you have done,

to me, my life.

Pour out your Spirit upon me

to understand in every cell of my being

your grace,

that I’m your child,

I’m beloved,

and I’m going to heaven

to be with you forever.

Let me cast all my fears,

all my anxieties upon you,

knowing that you never tire

of me drawing close,

opening my heart.

You promise that you’ll only draw closer.

You are my safe place,

and I bless you and I love you Lord.

Amen.