Lord,
Show me, teach me, help me
to surrender all to you.
I say yes in my spirit,
but don’t know how.
Please illuminate my heart,
reveal to my soul, my mind,
how I may let go.
My past, I give to you —
repenting of my sin, shame, and guilt,
receiving your forgiveness,
watching you go back in my past,
deleting all the files —
those moments, like I had never even sinned.
My future, I give to you —
so many expectations
of what I thought I needed to do,
and where I needed to be,
what I needed to look like,
absorbed from tradition, family,
culture, religion, and worldly systems
into my needy heart seeking approval,
that has only atrophied the soul you knit in me.
Yet your Spirit within has proved greater.
I surrender to your voice,
the pressures and flows of your Spirit,
buoying me into your paths,
safe within your love,
far outside my comfort,
fully alive and my soul rising and set free,
trusting you in the unknown,
casting my fears, anxieties, and worries upon you.
I surrender all my desires,
giving voice to each one,
entrusting them into your hand,
into your care,
because you know best.
I desire only your best for me,
so help me to surrender all
to receive from my Lord
and give praise to your Name.
Amen.